So I have finally come to realize that being a mom doesn't have to make me an invalid!
For so long I thought that I wouldn't be able to do ANYTHING. ever. So I didn't. And I ended up driving myself completely insane. I would be "stuck" in the house for days on end, and just thought that it wouldn't work to go anywhere. I figured I couldn't shower or get ready for the day until Rob got home from work because, well, the baby would need me. Now I have been able to shower and get myself together BEFORE Rob comes home. Let's backtrack...
A couple of weeks ago I was ready to give up on being a mom. I figured it just wasn't for me and that I should just not even bother trying anymore. I was extremely discouraged.
Here's why:
I, like lots of people, update my status of Facebook like 100 times a day, and one day, when I was completely frustrated and at my wits end, I posted that I didn't understand why Isaiah was being a grouch and why he wouldn't have a nap. I started getting comments like CRAZY saying that I should make sure that he has a ton of naps during the day, that he was completely sleep deprived and that if he didn't nap now while he was younger, he would never nap. So I tried and tried and tried to get him to nap. He wouldn't. I ended up getting more and more frustrated thinking that I was a terrible mother and that Isaiah was a bad baby.
Boy was I wrong.
My mom really put things into perspective for me. She reminded me that Isaiah sleeps through the night!! There are usually maybe one night out of 10 that I am up with him - and on those nights, I'm only up with him once during the night. He is an amazing night sleeper. He can sleep anywhere from 10-12 hours at night. There aren't very many 3 month old babies that can do that. So I decided to leave those comments OFF of Facebook and just pray about it and not worry about the fact that sometimes he just doesn't have a nap.
He has been napping during the mornings lately, usually anywhere from half an hour to an hour and I'm okay with that. Sure, sometimes I would like to have a nap, but if he is going to sleep all night then I should be happy with that.
Needless to say, I am now a MUCH happier mother. And I CAN do it! I'm not a terrible person - I'm just a first time mom. There is always a first time for everything.
3 comments:
I am so happy for you Kara. You are a great mother to Isaiah!!!
I am so glad that you have found time for yourself and that you are being a great mom. I want to encourage you that you are a great mom because you love God and he is your strong hold. Thank you for sharing your story with people and having the courage to keep going even when it is hard. It is inspiring. Have fun being a mom.
Kara,
I am so thrilled that you looked within your self and sought out guidance from God and your mom! You are a great mom and admitting you make mistakes is the first step to being even greater! Being a first time mom is hard, all us mom's know that even if it's with different circumstances. So for you, Kara, I say congratulations and God bless on being who you are and striving to be the best mom Isaiah could have!!!
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