2.14.2013

Valentine's Day

Today is February 14th. WHY do people have such animosity toward this day!? I just don't get it.

Okay, Okay, I get it if your single. You feel like everyone is all up in yo' business because they have dates and they get flowers and you don't. That bites. This probably won't apply to you at all, so feel free to stop reading, and continue hating Valentine's Day. Just enjoy this:

Save the Date


:)

You know, I get so tired of hearing, "I hate it when my husband gets me something for Valentine's day."
Hahahahahahaha. No you don't.

Yes, everything on this day is overpriced. Yes, it's all hyped up! It's craaazy hyped up. But, umm, do you remember Christmas? HYPED. UP. Every holiday is!

I've done it. I've told my husband to NOT get me flowers on this day. I've told him to not get me ANYTHING because we "don't have money." That's entirely true. I told him exactly this last night, and he gave me this 'look.' The look of despair - he was discouraged. In his mind, all he wanted to do was surprise me with some roses, or a box of chocolates, and now I TOLD HIM NOT TO. Why? Because Valentine's day isn't a day women should get flowers. It's too predictable. Oh for Pete's sake.

We're tight on cash. We're ALWAYS tight on cash. But after looking at my husband's reaction when I told him that I didn't want him to get me anything? He actually said, "Kara, all I wanted to do was surprise you and take you out for lunch and then pick up a nice gift for you. For Valentine's Day." He gets me something for my birthday, and mother's day... Why would I deny him getting me something for Valentine's?

Embrace the hearts and the cutesy teddy bears and the roses, ladies! It's Valentine's Day! Let your man spoil you!

2.09.2013

I have MS {Please stop looking at me like that}

Wowzahs!! It's only been forever and a day since I actually wrote up an update on my health. Here goes...

 I feel okay! I actually have a cane now...to help with balance issues. You know. And so that I get those 'looks' from people. Those pity looks, you know the kind. YUCK!! Stop looking at me like that!

 I know you mean well. Really, I get it. It's hard to know what to say to someone who feels sick half the time. But when you say, "Oh, I know someone with MS", I really don't know how to react to that. Or the "Yeah, I get tired a lot too - it's hard, hey?" ....Yes. Yes it IS hard. It's a daily struggle!! Sometimes I'm so tired, I don't even know what to do with myself. I can hardly walk. What people don't understand is that I'm not JUST tired. Like, it doesn't help to just sit down, or walk slower (oh don't get me started on the 'walking slower' comments). Fatigue is a huge part of my MS. Fatigue basically starts a downward spiral with me. My legs start to hurt and become a little bit more numb, my head starts to throb, sometimes I get a migraine, sometimes not. My eyes get fuzzy. I start limping, and my balance goes all wonky (hence the cane).

 *sigh* I also need to say something here, that I'm sure will offend a few of you. Or a lot of you. But I have to say it. I'm really not interested in these 'natural' things. Melaleuca, fennel seed, turmeric,  whatever. NO THANK YOU.

What a lot of people don't understand, is that I NEED to be on a medication to slow the progression of this disease. My neurologist explained it to me this way:"It's the difference between walking for the next 5 years, or walking for the next 25 years."

 That's pretty huge to me.

All of these herbal drinks and pills might make me feel good right now, yes. I understand that. BUT - they aren't going to heal me. They aren't going to slow the progression of this disease. It's not like a bad rash or a few bad headaches every once in a while. I do take vitamins to help boost my immune system, because with MS I'm basically susceptible to catching everything. My husband had a cold a couple of years ago...and I ended up in the hospital with pneumonia for 4 days.

All of that being said, I DO REALLY APPRECIATE everyone who has offered, and still offers, to help. People offer to bring me meals, to come and hang out with me, to take care of the kids for the day. THAT is huge for me. THAT is the kind of help I need and love. :)

 xoxoxo